Imagine you are watching the movie Braveheart and it gets to
that famous Battle of Stirling scene. The Scottish were outnumbered 3 to
1 by the English army so already the odds were against them. But they
were fighting together; fighting for freedom.
What would you think if you were watching that scene and
William Wallace did nothing to stop the discouraged Scottish soldiers from
leaving the battle? What if there was no famous
"FREEDOM" speech, but instead William Wallace went alone to battle
the English army in that scene? Would you find William Wallace stupid?
crazy? arrogant? Would you turn it off? Would you be curious as to
why he felt like he needed to battle alone instead of recruiting to stay?
Who would ever make a movie like that? Who would ever fight a battle like
that alone?
Well today God opened my eyes to see that this ridiculous
scene of battling alone has been me the past 9 years. I have been
battling for the freedom of souls lost to darkness and the freedom of souls in
captivity to injustice but haven’t asked people to pray with me and for
me. I’ve been severely injured from this battle too and that’s
probably why I hid in Montana for 2 years doubting everything I ever believed
or experienced.
This morning God revealed to me why I have been barely
surviving in ministry since I began full time in 2010. The reason I say I
am battling alone is because I haven't asked people to partner with me in
prayer, the most powerful weapon I posses, to battle in places I cannot
physically see. I've asked people to join me in other ways but prayer
should have been the first partnership I extended to those who wanted to come
alongside me in this ministry because "PRAYER PRECEDES ANY MOVEMENT FROM
GOD" (Guil). My mentor Merrie says, "If I desire to see
anything happen here in this natural realm I need to get it started in the
spiritual realm first."
I’ve seen God do so much already so I can’t even imagine
what He will do now that I‘m inviting people to join me in
prayer. When I’ve come together to pray with others I’ve seen
God move in incredible ways, but then in my own life and personal ministry I’ve
been wondering where my breakthrough is. I’ve literally depleted
everything to 0 and taped out every resource.
Reflecting back on this week I see how things were leading
up to this moment. I had a friend ask me what she could do to help me and I was
literally shocked. No one has ever asked me that. It took
me 2 days to think of a way she could help me. A few days before
that, in a quiet time, God spoke these words, “If I am ever to be raised up it
must be by the Hand of God. God can do nothing for me until I get to
the limit of my possible.” I wondered what “my possible” looked like
cause I felt like I had already passed that limit. But now I see God
was getting my attention to invite others to join me through prayer.
All this time I have thought if people wanted to help they
would ask. But I realized that people do want to
help. When you don’t ask for help people just assume you got it all
figured out and they don’t ask how they can help or how they can pray for
you. I hear all the time “Rachael you are so independent.” But I
honestly don’t feel independent. On the outside it looks like I am
independent but people don't see the sorrow and desperation I am facing on the
inside, desperately dependent to partner with people. But not wanting to
bother them to get a job done I just did what I had to do (how
prideful). I was just doing what I thought I needed to do to survive
and help others but what I needed was a community of people coming alongside
me, praying with me and for me.
So I implore you today, if you would like to partner with me
in prayer, and become a regular champion of this fight for freedom, please send
me a message and let me know. It's a matter of me not only needing you
but wanting you to champion this fight with me. I’m not really sure
how to go about this new partnership but I’m sure the Lord will lead and I
welcome any ideas to communicate these prayer requests.
Maybe you too find yourself in this same
situation. If this is you then I encourage you to reach out and ask
for prayer. You can even reach out to me. Just please
don’t battle alone anymore!
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